Today was tough... again. It was all engineering. So at first it was basic metric conversions. No problem. Then the ideal gas law, conservation of mass, fluid statics, Newtonian fluids and viscosity, laminar vs turbulent flow and the Reynolds number, working with the friction factor and changes in pressure. At some point in there, I got totally overwhelmed and felt like I was behind the whole time. The professor was really fast and I was barely able to write everything fast enough, let alone think about it. There was a moment when I had a little talk in my own head about how much it was sucking and how frustrated I was getting and how stupid I was feeling. Then I thought I would cry and that would make me feel better.
Two things happened then: I remembered that I'm there ultimately for fun. This isn't because I have to. This isn't because my parents are making me or paying for it. This is because I want to and I love it. So I decided to get over it, relax and enjoy the challenge. I decided to trust that if I work hard and have patience, I will get to where I need to be when I need to be there.
The second thing that happened is that I decided THERE'S NO CRYING IN BREWING.
Sometimes a good cry is a great stress reliever! I know the feeling of being overwhelmed. I remember while student teaching you kept telling me "You will get through this." :-) You will get through this.
ReplyDeleteYou're right. Somehow, I just will. Thanks. :)
DeleteI have seen folks cry in their beer, though. There is a time and a place, but probably not at school. You are among the brightest people I know - not just studious, book smart, but street smart and wise. Keep focusing on the joy of it all.
ReplyDeleteThanks! I'll do my best to remember how fun this is. :)
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